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Struggling but still in better condition than others!

I am in a better position than others.
Others had it much worse.

But human is just so ungrateful sometimes.
I am ungrateful and selfish.

Today was a better day, I think.
My work is okay.
My mind is okay, I guess.
I ate out with my colleagues today, that was fun and bit sad cause some of them are leaving but
I am used to it.

GOODBYEs!
I am good at it.
Sometimes I just ignored it, I blocked my heart to feel sad when I actually really sad.
It is never easy to say goodbye.
I think I might cry.

I am struggling because of the economy.
It is not happy with me.
Well, you know what? I am not happy with you either!

Also, I don't know how to deal with this one thing.
It keeps on bugging on me.
Like it will always be there, always.
I am not scared; I am just sad.

That's all.

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