It has been so long since the last post. Life has been fine and normal. I have fallen into the trap of being a K-pop stan, been heartbroken by the removal of a member, and been crying over the mistreatment. Then, I realised my life was a bit happier, to be honest, I should be thankful. I have everything I need here in my hands. However, humans are such peculiar beings, me included. Sometimes, I wanted what others had without even thinking about why I really needed them. I might not even be happy if I got what they have. Then, as I watched the time go by, I started to wonder whether I had moved at all. Am I a different person today than a few years ago? Or was I the same? I'm concerned I may have wasted the time given to me. Then again, as I live my life every day, am I really living?
I am in a better position than others. Others had it much worse. But human is just so ungrateful sometimes. I am ungrateful and selfish. Today was a better day, I think. My work is okay. My mind is okay, I guess. I ate out with my colleagues today, that was fun and bit sad cause some of them are leaving but I am used to it. GOODBYEs! I am good at it. Sometimes I just ignored it, I blocked my heart to feel sad when I actually really sad. It is never easy to say goodbye. I think I might cry. I am struggling because of the economy. It is not happy with me. Well, you know what? I am not happy with you either! Also, I don't know how to deal with this one thing. It keeps on bugging on me. Like it will always be there, always. I am not scared; I am just sad. That's all.