It has been so long since the last post. Life has been fine and normal. I have fallen into the trap of being a K-pop stan, been heartbroken by the removal of a member, and been crying over the mistreatment.
Then, I realised my life was a bit happier, to be honest, I should be thankful. I have everything I need here in my hands. However, humans are such peculiar beings, me included. Sometimes, I wanted what others had without even thinking about why I really needed them. I might not even be happy if I got what they have.
Then, as I watched the time go by, I started to wonder whether I had moved at all. Am I a different person today than a few years ago? Or was I the same? I'm concerned I may have wasted the time given to me.
Then again, as I live my life every day, am I really living?
Aku sudah tua. Bagi aku, hidup aku tak kenal usia, tapi tak mudah untuk aku menjadi seperti mereka. Persoalannya adalah."Adakah aku mahu menjadi seperti mereka?" Aku juga tidak pasti. Mungkin aku masih belum kenal lagi diri aku sendiri. Ya. Walaupun aku sudah banyak umur, walaupun aku sudah banyak makan garam, tapi aku masih tidak kenal dunia. Jujur aku katakan yang aku sebenarnya tidak mahu kenal dunia. Aku lebih rela tinggal seorang. Tapi, apabila bersama mereka, aku nampak mereka sangat bahagia, dan aku jadi cemburu. Aku cuba masukkan diri aku dalam kalangan mereka. Aku cuba. Persoalannya, "Adakah aku terlalu mencuba untuk menjadi seperti mereka?" Mungkin. Aku tidak kenal lagi siapa aku.
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