Still a Random Gaeguri

I am in a better position than others. Others had it much worse. But human is just so ungrateful sometimes. I am ungrateful and selfish. Today was a better day, I think. My work is okay. My mind is okay, I guess. I ate out with my colleagues today, that was fun and bit sad cause some of them are leaving but I am used to it. GOODBYEs! I am good at it. Sometimes I just ignored it, I blocked my heart to feel sad when I actually really sad. It is never easy to say goodbye. I think I might cry. I am struggling because of the economy. It is not happy with me. Well, you know what? I am not happy with you either! Also, I don't know how to deal with this one thing. It keeps on bugging on me. Like it will always be there, always. I am not scared; I am just sad. That's all.

 Just recently, I came across a group that I really like. I am loving (a little bit more) one of the members. They are still very young. Debuted almost 4 years ago after successfully going through a televised challenge. They are just so good at their job. The one that I really like is just a ball of joy and sunshine smashed up together to shine us all. I never knew that I would like this thing. Like I really like it, they are just on my mind all the time. Focus? Well, it's well out of the window by now. But the thing is, I am so happy about it. It's the best distraction I have encountered. I am happy and I want to continue to be distracted happy. And the other part where I need to focus is still struggling. I am struggling a bit. Lastly, I want to emphasis that I am really excited about my new distraction.

 Honestly, I just kind of forgot that I have this. I am currently feeling a lot of feelings and I think that is why I am really stressed out. Obviously, I need this. To let things out! So, today, I was feeling quite okay but then I was not. Do you ever experience this? Like the day was going so perfect , nothing is perfect, but it was going fine I guess then, something happened and all of that fineness is thrown over. Okay, bye.

 Hi guys! The SPM 2021 exam is just around the corner. I should be more and more passionate about teaching this time of the year BUT I don't know. If I am being a helpful teacher or human being at least.  If I am doing my help to help and motivate my students. Am I being a responsible person and human being? I am worried mostly about myself. Will I be able to live with myself if they don't do well? I don't know BUT there's still time SO I will try my best. Haha :) This is just me trying to tell myself that I am going to do better this year.  I hope. K bye guys.

 LET ME TELL YOU. You will have to stay back alone. You will start imagining things like I should have burn a lot of calories cycling this evening instead of working alone. You will also start blaming yourself because there is no one else to blame. You are the reason you are still working at this hour.  Some might think, this is what I deserved. I do think so too but it is not easy to actually experience it. Okay, I want to finish my work.

 The reason I put a question mark is because I don't know if I will be new this year. 2022, what do I expect? From myself, quite a lot actually. First, be kind. Second, make sure you do the first one. Third, lose weight - don't we all do this every new year? Fourth, be rich. I think the last one will be the toughest to achieve because I am not smart with my expenses. Okay, too much info in one sit. HAPPY NEW YEAR!  

 This is about a Korean variety show that I came to love.  I started watching and I fell in love; the cast members, the games and the indoor and outdoor sleeping arrangement.  Well, I love and love the show. I guess, people are not supposed to love something too much. Anything too much is just poison. POISON. I am currently paying the price of consuming, voluntarily consuming the poison.  The world is just a temporary place and me wasting my time and energy loving something that is temporary is just TOXIC.  I am killing myself literally mostly emotionally. An advice for everyone out there.  Love yourself, just love yourself. Whatever you do, think about this first. K, bye.